Let's get a bit personal here.
The thing I was scared about the most was what would people think once they found out that I was pregnant. I was only 20 years old. I was attending my university. I was unwed. I was scared. I did not know what to do. I did not know who to tell or how to tell it or how to even start. It was even a surprise when I found out I was pregnant. I was in my dorm room watching movies on my laptop alone and then I started rummaging through my side drawer. I found a pregnancy test that I actually bought months ago. I looked at it and said “hmm, why not?” so I tried it. Peed on a plastic cup used the syringe that came with it and I added about 3 drops of urine on the stick. And then I LEFT IT THERE and continued watching my movie. Yep I left it there. After the movie ended (about 20 minutes) I looked at the stick and found 2 lines…. And I said “wait, 2 lines?” I looked at the directions to see what the 2 lines meant and I laughed. “No way! This cannot be true its probably just old”.. and right then and there my heart started to beat harder and louder. I rushed to the pharmacy to get 2 more pregnancy tests. They were all positive. This time I had all thoughts in my head. My parents are going to kill me. What do I do with my school? How am I going to tell? What will people think of me? My parents will disown me, they will be disappointed in me. My friends will never talk to me. My friends, teachers and family friends will talk about me behind my back. Those were the voices that I heard in my mind the whole time.
And I am here to tell you to forget about it. People will always have opinions and thoughts about you, but don’t let it get over your head. The most important thing is you baby's health. Your parents will accept you no matter what. And trust me once the baby is born they will love your child like it was their own. You will have friends that will support you and would want to be Godparents. Teachers will even ask you how your baby is and your family friends will also be there to bring gifts to you and your baby.
You might think that Everything will fall apart after having a baby at the wrong time or the wrong age, but it won't. You can change to a better person. You WILL change once that baby is born. The little bean that lived inside you for 9 months and the one you pushed out of you, that little tiny person will give you joy, encouragement, motivation and love. He will love you always and forever. That is all that matters. So right now you might have a lot to think about, but in the end nothing else matters, but your little tiny human being.
Should I write more posts like these? It is a bit more personal, but It's nice to share people my history and thoughts.
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